I have no clue why God picked me, loved me.
I would not pick me. Ha ha ha, I know for a fact there are those out there that would not pick me either. Some because they have a personal thing against me, others because of a silly idea of what a minister of God is suppose to be and yet some who think that it is suppose to be them and not me.
Please, I am not being conceited
or retarded
let alone self righteous....
I seriously do not know, what exactly God has seen in me. He loves me so and guides my life. He prepares blessings for me that are never ending. I have seen His mighty hand not only protect me, but also remove, and even push away those that only wanted to use me..... or worse.... hurt me.
GOD LOVES ME!
WOW!
Can you believe that?
But I am so undeserving.
And I am still learning.
Each day I am searching for His perfect will in my life.
FUNNY! Perfect will? But why the suffering and the pain and the disappointments. Is that.... PERFECT? Or were you getting my attention GOD? I asked if all these trials I was facing worth it. And You reminded me of Job. I asked you why I needed to wrestle with you in prayer. And you told me to look at Jacob. I asked God why are you leading me to pray so much. And He told me to look at Hannah.
I asked Him why me....
and He told me... just wait and see...
I trusted God and I do see, beginning to see. All I see now is birthed from hope. I have now the evidence of what I could not see.
I have no clue why God picked me, loved me.
(c) Saturday, March 04, 2006
